June 3rd, after six flags.
You held me the whole ride home from the park.
I woke up to a text telling me you’re ok.
You send a long text, after i ask how to help.
Worded so perfectly.
All i read is ‘lay off.”
It hurts.
I want to argue.
YOU were the one initiating touch more than me.
YOU were the one holding me in the car.
YOU were the one looking into my eyes.
YOU were the one saying you’ve never been happier.
Instead i tell you I understand, and i crawl into bed alone.
Because i do understand.
I just wish i could be angry.
Im just frustrated that i care so much.
I want you to be happy.
Thats why i told you in the car, even if you’re not mine, even if we dont talk,
Just knowing you’re alive will make me smile.